Hyped up by the opening of 2019, I tried to slam the keyboard for a dozen times now and haven’t hit publish yet. I mean, yeah, I wanna share my New Year’s Resolutions guidelines too but everybody is already doing that and I am not one of everybody, so ditching that for now. Maybe I will be able to publish that after meeting one of my closest friend this weekend for the first time this year.
Instead, am posting about slowing down, about me thinking aloud “WAIT! STOP! PAUSE! I cannot handle this yet!” but of course thinking aloud means just that. In reality, I say YES, to almost everything.
Have you ever been blessed with too many opportunities that it scares you? Cause the year’s still on the edge of starting and am presented with a lot that it scares me. A lot.
I was offered one of my dream jobs lately. It is a WOW for a New Year and yes, the tables have turned, indeed. If this will flourish, am seeing more Starbucks drinks all year round! Perhaps I should just say, Cheers!
Then enrollment. Okay, looking on the list, after this semester, am 5 subjects away from leaving the hallway floors to the kiddos who will be occupying my favorite spots for deep thinking. Haha!
First day and I receive a “meet me ASAP” message. I was excited as usual, but my schedule is so jammed up but yeah I could go on my break. Whew. Rushed to the meetup location and ordered an iced coffee. And then what came next was big, bigger than me, bigger than anything I could imagine. looked at a few messages and I could see “Twitter, IG, LinkedIn, and Facebook Pages”. So wow, congratulations on that. But then to my surprise and shock, I was offered the position. Say what now?
“If you say “no” now, I will have no choice but to give this to others”. “If you say “yes” now, I will teach you and by the time I mention you, you will be standing over my shoulders”. Okay, that wasn’t exactly what he said, I just flowered it a bit but it’s the same thing and OMG my heart is racing! I asked, “why me?” and he answered, “why not you?” In my head, I am counting and recalling people more capable and deserving than me and then he talked about signs. Please, do not talk about signs as I strongly believe in them but I do not want to believe in this, not yet.
I left our meeting with too much stuff in my head. That was the time I felt so afraid I want to hide from the world. That was the time when I want to run around the Oval or take a long walk in town. But of course, I have to go back to reality first where my last class for the day awaits.
But I said “YES” without thinking it twice. I said “YES” again, to something I have no idea what to do. For now, will be reading and waiting for the weekend to come! As mom said over the phone that same night, “you just have to have proper time management and you are all set for success!” I wish I was in Istanbul right now!
